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[May. 10th, 2006|10:44 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Mama Said - Metallica | ] |
Well...tomorrow is the day i have to go an give blood to doc jain, and get an ultrasound. my leg still kindda hurts but thankfully nothing like it did a week ago. i am nervious about going, would really rather not go but i have to. cant risk it being something serious. doing this is really screwing me on bills but i gotta do it damnit......i hate everytime it looks like i might get ahead in someway something like this always happens.....
Cayden got sick again last night, he started to vomit around 4am this morning. i had already been up since 2am with my foot having bad pains. i was able to get him back to sleep around 6:30, luckily mom kept him for me tonight so i can get some rest and go tomorrow without doing alot of running around. i wish we can get him better, i hate him having to go through all of this. everytime i think about him it makes me proud. he is getting so smart and big.....he'll always be my baby though.
we hired a new guy at work, his name is david. he's pretty cool from what i can tell, but i'm still feeling him out. he is having doubts about working there, he's not sure if he is cut out for it, but i think he'll do fine if he sticks it out and tries. Barry is still there, i'll post more on him later.
Havent talked to jody in awhile, think i'll try and track him down this weekend. john is surposed to call me tonight, i think he will. cel found out about my leg and will more than likely have him call to get the full story. i miss talking to her though, i try but it doesnt seem to get me very far. Might try and call dad this weekend.... we'll see. i'm getting off and going to spend some time with kristi. i'll post more laterz. |
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| Grr.... |
[Mar. 27th, 2006|11:36 pm] |
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god damn i am agrovated. i feel so unsatisfied with every element in my life. i feel like i have nothing to show for my life and that sickens me. fuck it...i'm too tired to post now.... |
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| Long time no post! |
[Mar. 15th, 2006|09:51 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Best of: Monsters of the Morning | ] |
it has been a long ass time since i posted. been through a lot since the last time i posted, soooo....i will just post about here recently. well.... we fired tim at work, hired a new guy named ray. he's pretty cool, been a drummer for like 30 some-odd years. he's been working with scott the past week and worked a little with me. barry is getting better at his job, and i am starting to go out too. i got a raise, now making $11.00 an hour. been busting my ass trying to stay afloat with bills. Kristi's club finally opened in valrico. she is making decent money, finally.
I ordered the new monster dvd, i cant wait for it to come, it'll make ky day when it gets here@. also found out i can download the monsters best of shows and listen to them at night. which..i am doing now. man,,,this is really inproving my mood.
been seeing some stuff around the house, i am starting to think it might be a doppleganger. kristi has been hearing stuff, and seeing stuff as well. the other night i saw, what i thought was kristi, putting clothes into the dryer, so i walked toward her and started to talk to her, and when i got to the dryer she disappeared. i stopped, looked around, and saw her almost asleep in the living room.
well...i gotta go get the baby to bed,. |
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| finally a public entry...lol |
[Oct. 18th, 2005|09:23 pm] |
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its been a while since i last made a public post so i figured i would do one,lol. for some reason i am wore out today, its been a long ass week but i would figure i made up for sleep on sunday, but i guess i'm wrong. today was a very long day at work,..fuck...i jsut remembered i forgot to take out the trash at work...damnit. i guess that's another fight tomorrow....oh well...moving on.
i gotta replace the water pump on the ole jeep, she went out sat. when i was taking kristi out for a driving lesson. luckily its only $30 to replace, and about 2 hours of work. i'm thinking about trying to do it tomorrow after work, but we'll see how the day goes.
i really dont wanna be on call this weekend....i need a break.... oh well....i think i'll head to bed. |
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| a lot going on |
[Oct. 6th, 2005|05:52 pm] |
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Man there is soooo much stuff i wanna post but dont really have the time. i got a few minz before mom and todd get back with cayden so i thought i would try and get some up. this weekend i got serlac in orlando, i thoguht about trying and going to miss monster but decided to just come back to the house and get some work done on the jeep. i might head over to a costume store while i'm in orlando, not sure yet though. i got my invite to evans party on the 15th, and tim is going o work with me so i can switch him nights and have it off, they are going to have sword fighting there as well and i hope to have my case ready by then {i decided to rebuild my case, but havent had time to work on it after i got it apart, lol}. played a little bt of WoW, made a warlock, damn they kick so much ass...but i still love my hunter, lol.
i spent last weekend with kristi and the kids, we took them to cypress gardens, we had a blast. felt really good to have the family together again and go out to do stuff. i'm so glad i get to see lacey again, cayden loves seeing her too. he wont go to sleep when she is around, he just wants to play with her all the time. she may not be my biological daughter, but i love her just the same. she'll always be my lil gurl, and i'll always be her diddy.caydne got some sun on his face, but he didnt burn thank god. we also got their hair cut, he now looks like a little boy.
......well damn...they're back. i need to get a hold of kristi to find out if i am picking up lacey tomorrow or not. well i better get going, i'll try and post again tonight, i know i definatly have to do a private post, might do another public...we'll see. laterz. |
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| It's Been awhile.... |
[Sep. 25th, 2005|06:31 pm] |
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Its been awhile since i last posted, by the time i get cayden down its jsut too late. got a little time tonight so we'll see what i can get posted. lets see, this has been a big week, i think i got cayden medicaid fixed, it should be reinstated by friday, kristi finally got visitation of lacey. i got to see her this weekend. about made me cry when she told me she loved me and missed me, eventhough she is not my biological daughter, i love her like she is. cayden and lacey played together, he loved it. they had a great time. i ahd calls this weekend, made about 250. umm....i guess that'll have to do for now. i'm getting really tired. i'll try and post more tomorrow. |
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| .....a few random thoughts..... |
[Sep. 15th, 2005|10:02 pm] |
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Hmmm.....little man jsut did not want to go to bed tonight, ijsut got him down like 5 mins ago. he fussed and fought till 9:45pm, then after getting in trouble i held him and lovd on him and he went to sleep like the good little boy he is, lol. i love him, he makes me happy, i so proud of him. he started to say "bird" today.
Jody wants me and shawn to join him and become "paranormal investigators". surprisingly shawn was like sure ok. so i guess he wants to do it, lol. i'm considering it, it might be fun, a good hobby to take my mind off things, but it could also be something i get to involved with and become consumed with... i think i'll sit back and see how devoted jody and shawn are before imake a real decision.
i found a pick of how i want the jeep painted, i think i'll call around and get some estimates on having it painted tomorrow. i think i will use it as a tool to work out all my aggrovations and get it built up the way i want it. still thinking about having something put across the front glass...just not sure what...i want something on it to get it its own personality...i'm listening to Devils Dance by met right now....makes me want to put "devils dance" across the front with the met star on both sides, and "come dance" on the back glass..lol.
well...i'm going to try and go to bed here and a few. laterz |
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| ..........::yawns::.......... |
[Sep. 15th, 2005|04:10 pm] |
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Well...here i am....50 mins before i get off from work and i'm tired as hell. i gotta go cash my check, thne go home and watch the baby, i am tooooo tired to go home and fight with him, lol. got pretty good check, i'm so glad i got a raise a couple weeks back. now if i can only start to save money i'll be doin good...lol.
cayden went for his check up today, she said he is doing pretty good, and he doesnt have to take the medicine he hates anymore. which i imagine he is overly happy about, lol. i'm glad he is getting better, now i jsut need to get him on medicaid/care or florida kid care....then get his shots caught up. which i am re-filling out all the forms for now....becuase i left off his ss#. i'll post more laterz. |
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| it's been awhile..... |
[Sep. 15th, 2005|06:03 am] |
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| | groggy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Monsters on the Morning - Real Radio 104.1 | ] |
Man it's been a little while since i last posted. had a few things going on so we'll see what i can get up before i have to leave in 15 mins. Cayden is getting better, he has a doctors appointment today at 9am to see how he is progressing. we got everything moved out of the old house.
i've been doing work on the jeep. i got the driver side brake lens replaced finally. cost me like $20.00 for a used one so it's pretty cool. still need to get the power windows fixed, damn i can't figure that shiot out. still need to buy new speakers for the doors, which i can get for about $10.00 a piece. i got a new cd player installed in the ole jeep. it will play burnt cds and MP3's which is bad ass...1 cd will hold like 150-200 songs. installed a new antenna too, that was a bitch.....had to remove the passanger side fender to properly run in the wire. i'm trying to repair this jeep properly and its becoming so time consuming. i still want to get it painted.....i am thinking about jet black, that either fades into crimson red. or have the trim painted red....not too sure yet.
well....time to head to work...i hate having to go into work this early...i'll try to post again tonight. laterz. |
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| ....grrrrr...... |
[Aug. 29th, 2005|10:26 pm] |
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| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Depressing playlist on my Ashampoo Player | ] |
i hate how everyday seems to grow into a long ass day... cayden went to the doc today, he has a really nasty sinse {sp} infection, that has spread to his ears and and eyes, they are draining out his nose and down his throat. they gave us some new meds for him, since the last ones he was allergic to. and hopefully these will work, i feel so bad for him, i hate seeing him go through this,...breaks my heart. i brought over his power wheels 4 wheeler and charged it for him, that made his day, lol.
i'm in a real fun mood , sitting here listening to depressing music, and not really thinking about anything....yup....fun mood for me..lol. oh well.
something i think i really need to try and work away from is drama. its something i dont seem to be able to get away from. i'm really tired of it. i talked to tim today, he said he'll watch calls for me sunday night, which is a good thing. i think i need a break. need to step back and take a look at everything and everyone i have around me, and re-access my situation.
hmm.............i think i'll go ahead and get off of this....i'll post more laterz. |
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| another long weekend comming to a close..... |
[Aug. 28th, 2005|09:56 pm] |
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| | 10:00pm News on Channel 13 | ] |
Well, this weekend i was able to get a shed, start moving my stuff out of the old house, get back in contact with jody, and made $30.oo. cayden is still not feeling good, we went out to dinner tonight and he was good for about 30 mins, then he got sick, which was very messy. jody hung out pretty much all day today, he helped me get some stuff moved. kristi came up and saw the baby today as well. she wants to take him all weekend next weekend, then come up monday and go to cypress gardens, i'm off that day so i think we'll do it. but, other than that...i talked to erica a few times on the phone, and got some much needed sleep. not really too talkative tonight, mix between too much on my mind and being tired. havent had much energy lately,guess its time to charge my batteries.....i'm off to bed..i think, well...goodnight. |
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| friday..... |
[Aug. 26th, 2005|08:03 pm] |
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| | drained | ] |
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| | Stargate SG1 on SciFi | ] |
.....man today was a long ass day.....i finally got to get out of the shop and go out and help tim with a call. we had to rekey a car lot, which was fun. took us jsut about 2 hours to do it. john and cel came over, she is going to stay and help me get the rest of my stuff packed. les said she has packed a lot of it, which worries me. i still dont fully trust her. the plan is to get everything moved out of the house this weekend. then i can focus on getting on with my life. with some luck we'll have it all moved out tomorrow....but that;ll depend on the weather. the hurricane to the south is still playing hell with the weather. i am sooooo tired today. i think i will take sunday off and not do anything! its time to start eliminating things from my life that dont belong, starting tomorrow.... |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2005|10:36 pm] |
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| | john and cel talking in the background | ] |
I am so wore out today, i cant wait to get to bed,havnt been sleeping much lately, but i'll start crashing earlier oncei get things finished. john and cel came over tonight, i like hanging out with them.
i may have a "date" wednesday night with this girl i met over the net. she seems pretty cool, lives in lakeland and has 2 kids. a boy and a girl. she has a full time job, her own car, and plans for the future. its kindda odd to have a girl interested in me, didnt think it would happen so easily because i have a baby and now live with my mom again. i dont think i am ready to date her jsut yet, just going to meet her and hangout. then who knows, anything can happen, but i dont havbe my hopes up.
the jeep ran pretty good today, it never got above 210, which i am overly happy with. it was my first attempt at worknig on that part of the car, and it worked on the first try. hopefully i can get it all done without having to rebuilt a new jeep. lol. i need to name the jeep....thats what we are talking about now. well, i think i am goingto head to bed, tty laterz. |
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[Aug. 21st, 2005|11:58 pm] |
Look! Evil ducky! Anyway...You're evil! Um,
congratulations? *backs away slowly*
yup...thats me..the evil duck.... |
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| weekend update part 2 |
[Aug. 21st, 2005|11:22 pm] |
well....the jeep worked fine, i jsut hope i got the serpintine belt tight enough...i'll find that out on thedrive to wrk. i didnt get a cahnce to test drive tonight, had to take care of the baby. he's doing better now, the meds are really helping him out.
i miss having my desktop around...i have no music on this freaking thing.....i hate that.,...
i really dont want to go to work,...i'd rather stay here and work on the jeep. i still have a lot of work to do...it has become my way to work through my stress,...and spend my money...lmao.
i do regret not getting the chance to spend some time with cel this weekend, she is a good friend that i really havent had the opportunity to really talk to much privately. but since i gave up on sleeping pretty much...i get the chance to talk to her some on the net. makes me feel good that i cn be there for her, and she can come to me to talk about stuff. makes me feel really trusted, i like that. well...when i get the jeep up and running better i can start going over there insted of dragging thier butts to me...lmao.
well...i think i am going to take a online test..then watch "training day".....laterz |
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| my weekend update part 1 |
[Aug. 21st, 2005|04:03 pm] |
well..kristi came over and took me out for dinner, my bday present belated i guess. we had a great time. we went to chili's, i had a cajun ribeye and she had her same old fajitas. i tried their electric lemonaide, with had a lil rum in it, wasnt too bad, and she had a strawberry daquiri. they make pretty good drinks there, i was impressed, lol. when we left we both had a pretty good buzz going and went back home. we hung out and talked most of the night. it was a pretty good time. then we got up, packed a little, spent a little time with cayden, then the 3 of us took her back to riverview.
another hour or so i will find out if i fixed my thermastate right in the jeep. the gasget maker had to set for 24 hours, so...5;17pm...we'll see wht happens. |
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| grr..... |
[Aug. 20th, 2005|06:54 pm] |
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......well.....today was a complete fuckup, we'll see how tonight plays out. kristi finally showed up at 7pm....i was expecting her here at 3pm. i had made, then cancelled, remade, then just had to cancel my plans again because she finally came. cel was going to come over. she was surposed to come over to pack her stuff tonight, but after being so long i thought she wasnt going to show back up. well..i gotta go...need to get a shower. i'll post again later. |
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| we started packing...... |
[Aug. 20th, 2005|03:36 am] |
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| | The fishtank in the background | ] |
well...john and cel came over today and helped me start to pack my stuff up at the house. i'd like to have everything out by this weekend, but i still need to finda shed first to move everything to. les pissed me off, she drank almost all my aftershock...stupid bitch. well..i'm tired...i think i'll finish this post later.... |
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| i am so fucking tired//// |
[Aug. 19th, 2005|05:30 pm] |
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| | me yawning | ] |
damn, i am so tired! grr... i shouldnt have sat up so late last night, but it was needed. john and cel are comming over tonight, i think cel is going to stay and help me pack, which would be a good thing. well..i need to go and clean the kitchen, it fucking stinks! grrr |
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| .....god damn i hate people....stupid fuckers..... |
[Aug. 18th, 2005|09:04 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | Monsters of the Morning - Real Radio 104.1 | ] |
you know...i hate comming home, and seeing my house trashed. i hate living with people that dont work, and dont clean up after themselves. i am not their fucking daddy....so...from this point on, till i move out of this house, this house will stay clean. i am not living like a fucking slob. i wont have it. i havent slept since tuesday night, i sat all night at the hospital...and am not in the mood to be sitting in a fucking dumpster. SO, instead of spending my day off with my son, i am here, cleaning up after other people. NO MORE SORRY ASS PEOPLE ALLOWED IN MY FUCKING LIFE!, getting that tattooed across my chest. stupid fuckers.... |
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